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What do you want of me, Lord?

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Mary and Jesus

I came to the realization recently, in my countdown to age 30, that I’ve spent a substantial amount of time these past ten years trying to figure out just what I wanted to be. Heck, I’ve spent the better part of these past two weeks deciding what exactly I wanted to write about. Indecisiveness is easily in my characterization bracket. And if I know myself well enough, I’ll probably change my mind once I start typing.
For many, the dream of being a teacher, a police officer, firefighter, doctor, lawyer, professional athlete, etc. etc., began at a really young age. The dreams happened for me, too. At age 7, I wanted to be a teacher. By 11 or so, an architect.

When I realized my senior year of high school that I could barely get through pre calculus, that idea went out the window. I almost joined the Marine Corps in early 2001.

I started nursing pre requisetes in 2002. By 2005, I was so scatterbrained that I went back to school to finish a degree. And during and after that, I’ve worked another several jobs in various fields doing various things. All with hopes that I would find clarification.

What was it that I am supposed to be?

I was confused and things were tough. I was mentally exhausted from over thinking every. little. detail. But at the same time, I knew there must be something out there that is right for me.

And so finally, I did it. I asked God. I started praying constantly,

“What do you want of me, Lord?”

Sure enough around that time, my husband entered the picture. We married in July of 2008, and assumed we would “settle” into life for a while and wish for children after we’ve had time to “enjoy” being married. (Ya know, I’m still trying to figure this one out…….)

But we all know what happens when we make plans. God laughs at them and makes his own. When I saw the faintest of faint pink line on a First Response only six weeks later, I actually cried. I remember wondering how God could possibly entrust the care of a child to me already.

But He did.

God gave us a child and made me a mother! Here I was for years trying to decide for myself but He knew me best.

He wanted me to be a mom.

I remember the worry that followed. What will I do about work, how will we afford daycare, where will I deliver? We had just spent months planning the wedding and things turned into babyland really fast. And then our son was born.

What’s crazy is I don’t quite know when it hit me. I spent so much of my pregnancy distracted by the website, Babycenter, that I kept myself in denial. Sure, we were having a baby, and of course we were happy and excited, but little did I know…

He changed everything. All of a sudden light bulbs went off. I didn’t want to go back to work. I didn’t want to leave him. I just wanted to be a mother.

And I am.

A lot has changed in three years. We now have a daughter also, and I work nights waitressing. But I feel like I’m where I need to be.

It made me realize that I had spent so much time worrying about a career that my vocation took a backseat. Because once I finally “Let Go and Let God,” He put me just where He needed me to be.

Our Blessed Mother said, “I am the Handmaid of the Lord; Let it be to me according to your word.” Luke 1:38

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Hangin’ with the original Catholic Sistas

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Sometimes ya just gotta get creative to catch all the sisters in a photo!

If you’ve ever read Jen Fulwiler’s Conversion Diary, then you probably already have the scoop on the Dominican Sisters of Mary, Mother of the Eucharist. Why? Because Jen is infinitely MORE on top of how this blogging-in-a-timely-manner thing works than I am.

Clearly.

I wanted to share my experience with the original “Sistas.” I messaged back and forth with Sister Elizabeth Ann last week…first because of the new blog and wanting her opinion and thoughts on the blog {and a selfish request for her to consider blogging for the Sistas} and then second because she invited me to their Welcome Back barbecue. Sister loved the idea of guest blogging! If you haven’t heard of the Dominican Sisters or the success of their relatively new order, I urge you to watch the videos of them on Oprah to see why I am so excited about these wonderful ladies.

I'm not sure what Sister was talking about, but it looked too good to leave out!

God didn’t bless me with an abundance of treasure, so what I lack in that department, I do my best to make up with my time and my talent. I thoroughly enjoy taking time to tell others about the wonderful work being done in the Church. I offer up my children for good causes if I can, too. My oldest had the opportunity to help volunteer for a couple of hours with the Sisters for their first annual charity golf tournament and auction and benefit dinner and through that, I had the opportunity to meet Mother Assumpta that day! Nerd that I am, bragged to EVERYONE I could about it. But in a lot of cases, I had to explain who Mother Assumpta was! Oh well, it gave me the opportunity to talk in depth about the Dominican Sisters and their great work.

If you are blessed to be in the Central Texas area, you know that we are in the midst of a LOT of God’s good work. While it pains me as a UT Longhorn grad that A&M is churning out vocations, I am very pleased that a lot of good is coming out of our area. According to Sister Elizabeth Ann, the Dominican Sisters are about to close on property to start building the new priory.

Before the close of the barbecue, everyone was invited into the living room to listen to the sisters sing for us. If you look closely, you may see someone you recognize.

 

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